FULL TERM BABY!!!

We are in the clear. Of course you still have some time to keep growing in there but if you decided you wanted to come out, you sure can! And, I think we would all be okay if you made an early appearance!

This week was insane crazy but in the best of ways. Your Nana, Auntie Tara and cousin Lucas were here for the week. We did a lot of playing with ninja turtles and  watching Thomas and Friends. I guess having a 4 and a half year old running around gives your Dad and I a little glimps into the future. It has been so nice having them visit. We haven’t all been together for a very long time. We will definitely miss them and wish they all lived closer!

We also had our baby shower in Medicine Hat. That was a whirlwind of excitement. TONS of people showed up to rub my belly and give you well wishes. Everyone was pretty surprised at how big your Mom is. Torpedo belly is a known term for the way I am carrying you.

(Guest List)Nana, Auntie Tara, Cousin Lucas, Uncle Nathan, Auntie Sara, Gramma G, Papa Cameron, Robyn Steele, Marcos Urra, Jen Yue, Connie and Eric Brevik, Jason and James Cameron, Auntie Tereena, Taren Thauberger, Dannica Gerbrandt, Deanna Tokamp, Jodana Tokamp, Bobbi-Jo Tokamp, Tyler Tokamp, Auntie Donna and Uncle Bob Tokamp, April Hintz, Cory Streifel (Hannah & Issac Streifel), Aunit Penny, Cousin Ashley, Auntie Debbie,

You got spoiled to say the least. I did not expect to get that many amazing gifts. You are one lucky boy and your Mom and Dad feel so so grateful to have so many amazing people in our lives. A big THANK YOU to your Gramma G for putting so much work into decorating and making it just right. Robyn, who is pretty much the 3rd person to your Dad and I, for working so hard and helping Gramma G. Nana for cleaning up and being the biggest helper EVER. And Jen, for helping decorate as well. Oh heck…big thank you to everyone who traveled, who helped hang anything, run out and grab anything, or who came. It seriously meant the world to us to have you all there.

AND… your Mom had a big surprise sent her way. An old friend from Edmonton, who we haven’t really heard from for almost 2 years. showed up at the front doors. Instant flood gates of tears appeared and it felt amazing. On top of that she got us the most amazing gift. Jen was my maid of honor at your Dad and I’s wedding. She cut her dress up and made it into a blanket for us to keep so that she will always be with is no matter how far apart we are. Again…flood gates I tell you. She is an amazing girl and I cannot wait for you to meet her.

This day meant so much to us, but we left feeling as high as the sky and more loved then we could’ve ever imagined.

It is weird how much life and outlooks change. We cannot wait to watch you go through the walk of life, beat your own drum, and learn and grow from your mistakes like we have. We will do everything we can to teach you and show you the way.

As we pulled away from Medicine Hat my eyes filled with tears. WOW, just realised how often I talk about crying. I swear I am not a sap but lately that is all I seem to want to do. Anyway, I think this was the first time it actually hit me that we are having a baby. I am having a baby. Next time we see my family, we will have a baby. That is insane and crazy overwhelming. I have spent months planning for your arrival, buying you things you need, boasting about how amazing it all is, but I don’t know if I ever thought it would actually come. Not too sure how to explain the way I feel.

I am one scared Mom.

Scared for that first sign of labor.

Scared to make that call to your Dad that it’s time to head to the hospital.

Scared to call my family and tell them they need to start driving.

Scared for how hard this will be.

Scared for your safety and mine.

Scared for all of it.

Please don’t get me wrong, I love you more than I thought I could, and we cannot wait to have you in our lives. Even with all the wonderful people and support I have, I feel very alone. It’s you and I little man. I will be the one in pain and feeling your pushes. You will be the one deciding when you want to come out and how easy or hard it will be.

It’s just you and I.

But, I know that since you have been so great for 37 weeks you will be no different the day of and every day to follow…..OKAY everyone is laughing at me when I say that. It’s going to be hard. It’s going to be a challenge. But guess what, we will do it because we are together!

Oh and we had our doctors appointment this week too. Blood pressure was done, thank goodness. But, we did have to go for another ultra sound. I am so excited to see you so much but it does get me worried. I haven’t gained any weight in 2 weeks but in just 1 week you grew 2cm. I am 37 weeks and you are measuring 42 weeks (which I didn’t even know was possible). So they sent us to see what the deal is. After worrying your Mom yet again, everything is fine. No extra fluid and nothing wrong at all. The doctor even said I make such good babies that you just don’t want to come out.

So all is good. Busy week. Your Mom is off for her nap!

Next week we will share your room.

XO Baby M